pissed

I have unbounded anger.  Not towards anyone.  Not about anything that makes sense.  But at myself because I let myself get this way.
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I had control over my weight after many years' battle by last summer.  Then med-changes came up, and I was put on Risperdal.  I went from 113 to 128 in 2 weeks, and even after going off, haven't lost the weight.  Damn fucking Risperdal.  Fucking fuck.
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So yeah.  I'm pissed.