day 1

i feel sick.  i shouldn't have had coffee.  i give up on eating.  can't do it.  going to therapy in a few moments.  gonna have to tell her.  she's going to ask: what would happen if you did eat? i'll tell her i can't. she'll say, but what would happen? and i'll have no answer because it's not going to happen.  oh well.  i need help.  but i'm too fat for help.  life can suck sometimes.